By michaela renee on 4/29/2009 9:08 AM

Me: I think I’ve been going on too many dates.

Therapist: Right, addiction is a tough thing to break, that’s why we spend this hour each week talking…What makes you come to this realization?

Me: Well, I said from the beginning this was a numbers game.

Therapist: To a certain extent, yes…we know though that you take this whole plethora of available candidates to the extreme.

Me: Well, last week the girls and I went to Taco Tuesday Girl’s Night Out at our usual bar.

Therapist: Ahh yes, Girl’s Night…don’t you usually invite a potential match.com date?

Me: Yes, I usually invite someone to stop in and meet the girls if I feel he’s got good potential.

Therapist: Ok, so tell me about Taco Tuesday.

Me: So I’d gone to lunch with this guy Patrick and I thought he was a potential for ... Read More »

By michaela renee on 4/22/2009 8:32 AM

Everything I’ve ever worked for is gone…

I watched the small white digital numbers switch from 11:59 to 12:00, another new day has arrived that I’m not sure I’m ready to welcome.

Optimism abounds in my life, I find the positive in all the negatives, I don’t dwell on the lows and I bounce back quickly from the blows. I’ve surrounded myself with people whose eyes express love and hope. Today, at 12:01 even those people whisper these words…

Everything I’ve ever worked for is gone.

Day in and day out I offer up words of encouragement having come from the very bottom (after all that’s what the whole novel is about, surviving that fall, not once but twice).

And I realize, I believe my own words each time they escape my mouth. But I’m saddened…I’m saddened to watch one by one as my friends and my family lose it all. A deeper part of me knows that I’m better positioned than ... Read More »